Friday, August 30, 2013

Book Club Friday


Love me some book club Friday!!
I have read like 12 books in the past month!
What do you do?
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This weeks:

Flat-Out Matt (Flat-Out Love, #1.5)

Flat-Out Matt (Flat-Out Love #1.5)


Matt is a junior at MIT. He’s geeky, he's witty, he's brilliant.

And he’s also very, very stupid.

When beautiful, cool, insightful Julie moves in with Matt’s family, why (oh why!) does he pretend to be his absent brother Finn for her alleged benefit? 

It seems harmless enough until her short-term stay becomes permanent. And until it snowballs into heart-squeezing insanity. And until he falls in love with Julie, and Julie falls in love with Finn. 

But … Matt is the right one for her. If only he can make Julie see it. Without telling her the truth, without shattering them all. Particularly his fragile sister Celeste, who may need Julie the most.

You saw Matt through Julie’s eyes in FLAT-OUT LOVE. Now go deeper into Matt’s world in this FLAT-OUT MATT novella. Live his side of the story, break when his heart breaks, and fall for the unlikely hero all over again.

Take an emotional skydive for two prequel chapters and seven Flat-Out Love chapters retold from his perspective, and then land with a brand-new steamy finale chapter from Julie
































Last time I talked about Flat out Love & This week Flat Out Matt
I loved this book almost as much as I loved Flat Out Love. 
This book is not a "full" book. Its like certain chapters of the first one from Matt's point of view. But still its amazing and its fun to see the different point of view. Similar to Walking Disaster, but not a full book.
Lovee, 5 stars. Def. read :)

Monday, August 19, 2013

Maternity Photos

If you follow me on twitter (here)
then you know I was having a very difficult time with my photographer getting our maternity & newborn photos in a timely manner. 
Well a couple weeks ago we FINALLY got them all, and I am quite happy with how they turned out!!
We did a sneak peek of them when she had sent us a few, but here are some of my favorites from the day!












Waiting for them sucked but they sure are pretty :)

Friday, August 9, 2013

Book Club Friday


Haven't done a book club Friday in quite some time. 
But now that I have passed my licensure exam and don't have to study, 
have gotten into a better mommy & baby routine & am able to get more done I have more time to read. 
I have been on a blogging kick these past few days and have read quite a few books. 
What do you do?
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This weeks book is:
Flat-Out Love (Flat-Out Love, #1)

Flat-Out Love (Flat-Out Love #1)

He was tall, at least six feet, with dirty blond hair that hung over his eyes. His T-shirt read Nietzsche Is My Homeboy.

So, that was Matt. Who Julie Seagle likes. A lot. But there is also Finn. Who she flat out loves.

Complicated? Awkward? Completely.

But really, how was this freshly-minted Boston transplant and newbie college freshman supposed to know that she would end up living with the family of an old friend of her mother's? This was all supposed to be temporary. Julie wasn't supposed to be important to the Watkins family, or to fall in love with one of the brothers. Especially the one she's never quite met. But what does that really matter? Finn gets her, like no one ever has before. They have connection.

But here's the thing about love, in all its twisty, bumpy permutations—it always throws you a few curves. And no one ever escapes unscathed.
Source: Goodreads.com

























I absolutley loved this book. From the second I began reading it I couldn't put it down. I loved its twists, the love story and everything about it. I loved its nerdy references and was terribly sad when it ended!! Such a good book!
 

Monday, August 5, 2013

Momma Guilt

Some of you already know by reading {G's} birth story, I didn't exactly have the easiest delivery. 
Once the little man was out of my belly, I began to hemorrhage causing me to get super dizzy and nauseated. 
So when my sweet little man was brought up to me although I was beyond words happy to see him safe and healthy, I was really concentrating on trying to NOT throw up on him. 
As soon as my husband had to tae him out of the room, I told the anesthesiologist, I felt guilty for not being happier when I saw him. 
That was Momma Guilt Number 1.

Momma Guilt Number 2: 
I was discharged from the hospital WAY to soon. My hemoglobin levels were only 7 and although I felt fine when I left the walk to the car and rest of the day was spent with me trying to not trip or pass out from dizziness and cue horrible migraine that started that night. 
For 3 days I was SO SICK in bed, and had his daddy change his diaper and do a lot of the talking care of things while I laid helpless only being able to nurse him. After my blood transfusion i FINALLY felt better and could take care of him, but I look back on those 3 days and feel so guilty for not being able to take care of him the way I felt I needed too and that his daddy had to do most of the work. 

& now we are on to 
Momma Guilt Number 3:
I got back to work tomorrow.... That means that I go from being with him almost every single second of the day (minus going to the store a few times and once to the movies) to him having to be without me for 40 (plus drive time) hours a week. Thankfully he will be with his daddy most of the time, but come on he needs his momma. He gets sad when he is away from me for a few minutes let alone a few hours. I am dreading so much that fact that I have to go back to work tomorrow. I just want to stay home and cuddle, play and teach him everything he has to know. I don't want him to have to bee mostly bottle fed now. I LOVE breastfeeding and I am so sad that it will be reduced to just evenings. I can imagine that these next 4 days back at work are going to be tremendously hard, and I am thankful my husband will be sending me lots of sweet little pictures of my little man, but it is not the same as me being there. I am so sad that he will not get to wake up and see me :( So sad that he will be looking for me and wondering why I am not there as much. So much guilt. But at the same time I do know that this is good for him and I will teach him that working is important, and I do LOVE my job. But I love my baby more. 

SO today my sweet 12 weeks old baby and I are spending quality time snuggiling with lotts of hugs and kisses!!


I know in his life I am going to have more guilty moments, but right now he is too little. Three is enough. 

Friday, August 2, 2013

Postpartum Me.

I've been trying to write this post for a while now, but just couldn't get myself to do so. 
After {G} emotionally postpartum me was and is still great. 
I love my little man, I am happy as can be, energetic (although tired) and good. 
My body however, not so much. 
I wish wish wish that I could be like some of the other awesome bloggers that I follow and look amazing after baby!!
I would love to wear a bikini again, but that will never happen. 
Before baby I was TINY!
I loved it!
Here I am at 7 weeks pregnant with just a little belly forming. 
I know I will never have the same stomach back. Will I get back to being super tiny.
Maybe not. 
Although I weight less than I did before I got pregnant (thank you gestational diabetes)
My stomach will probably never look the same. 
I currently can not work out as much as I am use to due to an AWESOME (not) hernia that I have to have repaired. 
But on top of that, I am like most of society and have these awesome stretch marks to deal with. 
I mean come on how could I not being THIS HUGE:
Omg, I laugh just seeing that giant belly. 
Thankfully my stretch marks are ONLY right by my belly button so I can get away with a pretty hot one piece, but I will miss the old me!
However, I wouldn't trade it for anything!!
My little man is def. worth the stretch marks, the hernia surgery and the intense work outs I will be getting too. 
This little man is too cute for anything else.

But the new postpartum me, will need sometime to be truly happy with itself. 
& that is okay. I am not going to sit there and say I love my stomach. 
Because I don't. DO I hate it?
No. 
Am I happy about it?
No.
But was it worth it?
WITH OUT A DOUBT!
So this is the postpartum me. 
Stretch marks, belly pudge, huge boobs & all
& that is okay :)

Thursday, July 18, 2013

Our Breastfeeding Experience

Most momma-to-be's know what they want to do when it comes to breastfeeding. 
Some will choose right away to breastfeeding, knowing that it is what they want
& others will know that it is not for them and formula is. Either choice for a momma
is the right choice for them, but none truly know FOR SURE until baby is here. 

With me, I knew I wanted to breastfeed way before I even got pregnant. It had always been something I had known I wanted to do and I was excited but nervous for it to happen. 
I had everything ready for when he got here. 
Nursing pads, nipple cream, my pump for when I go back to work, nursing bras and shirts and had done a ton of research. 
I was bummed I had a c-section because I knew this meant I wouldn't be able to have my little man put on me right away 
So we had to wait about an hour before we could begin our breastfeeding experience. 

We began perfectly the nurse didn't really tell us too much but {G} had no problem latching and ate for about 10 minutes on each side. 
He kept falling asleep at first which I was reassured that this was normal. 
While we were in the hospital we were breastfeeding champs. 
Things began to get difficult when we got home. 
The night of day 3 is when I got my massive migraine from low hemoglobin levels, so I had to nurse in positions where my head was lying. 
The morning after my nipples began to get really sore, but I was persistent to power through. 
At this time my milk had STILL not come in yet, so my little man was nursing about every hour to two hours. 
This is probably why they were SO SORE. 
That night, I caved. 
I told my hubby and my mom that I couldn't do it anymore. 
It felt like glass was on my nipples and I was crying every time it was time for him to nurse. 
From there I caved and began to pump, but since I didn't have any milk yet, I hardly produced an ounce. 
From here I decided I would give my baby, dun dun dun, Formula....
I couldn't keep him full and it made me so sad to know that he was not getting anything and was starving. 
We had a small sample of formula from the doctor, and we opened it to have him ready. 
This would be {G}'s first time with a bottle and with formula so I was nervous and feeling guilty, but he took it with no problem and gulped down every last ounce. 
For the rest of the night/next morning he was given formula. 
At about 11am the next day my milk FINALLY came in and I cut back on the formula and gave him expressed milk. 
I still was too sore to attempt to breastfeed and this was the time I was re-hospitalized for my blood transplant. 

Once out of the hospital we continued with expressed breast milk and about 3 bottles of formula at night, we progressed to two bottles of formula, then one bottle of formula and then to none. At this point since he was only getting one breast milk I began to breastfeed him again. 
It continued to hurt so I started out slow, only breastfeeding him once a day. We progressed to two, and it continued to be sore and hurt. 

Finally I called up a lactation consultant to make sure he was latching correctly. 
Our consultant told us some tips and reassured us we were doing well. 

FINALLY, it stopped hurting and we began breastfeeding exclusively!
We still give 2 bottles at night of breast milk only to keep {G} use to the bottle for when I go back to work and also because he takes 30 to 45 minutes to nurse and I need sleep!
But otherwise I have FINALLY started loving breastfeeding


Things I have learned while breastfeeding:

1) Breastfeeding can be difficult and takes work. I kind of thought it would just come natural and everything would be easy. Well no, I was wrong. It takes work to get the babe to latch on and get use to things, and it is more difficult in the beginning before your milk comes in. 

2) Engorgement when your milk comes in is NO JOKE. This was probably one of the most painful parts of having a baby. My breasts were HARD as rocks, as much as I pumped they hardly emptied. They were sore and I could hardly sleep this night, but after about a day they started to get better. They became engorged a few times if I went too long without pumping at first and I have found nursing is so much better at unclogging ducts and getting rid of engorgement then pumping is. 

3) Formula is not the enemy. It took my milk 5 days to come in and had I not had formula on hand, my poor baby would have been MISERABLE. It saved us!

4) Calling a lactation consultant is a life saver. This def. reassured me that I wasn't a failure and that I was a good momma. It also was super helpful with little tips and tricks that made things much easier. 

5) Nipple shields should be used with caution and temporarily. 

6) Breastfeeding can be PAINFUL in the beginning. I was told numerous times my babies latch was good, I was checked for thrush, and was doing it correctly, but something sucking on the same thing that hard, all day is going to hurt. HOWEVER, if you can make if threw the first few weeks, it gets better!!

7) Breastfeeding is one of the most amazing bonding experiences ever. I love this time that I have with my little man. Where I stare at him, stroke his hair and listen to him contently eating. I love that I am able to provide him with that. Even with all the pain I wouldn't trade it for anything. 

So if you are a momma-to-be or new momma and are breastfeeding stick with it, it gets better. But know formula is not failing at all!! 

Friday, July 5, 2013

Our 4th of July!

Little man had a super fun 4th of July. 
We headed out early to have a BBQ at a lake with good friends
& then watched fireworks from our home!
We are thankful hat we can see them right at our house although it caused the baby to wake up which was not so fun!
What are ya gonna do though!



Cell phone picture but somebody was SUPER happy about his first 4th of July!